Eight Mile, yesterday.
Author: dustndivinity
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Day star, solo hiker.
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Edges and boundaries, desert edition. Flying over patterns on the earth we’ve made with our growing and fighting and fucking and feeding, even in the most inhospitable places, and I’m thinking of the mold blooms that never leave our bathroom, a recent tropical-virus-of-the-week map, blotches of dermatophytosis on an elderly woman in front of me at the grocery store this morning. Sometimes from above this just seems like some weird scab you could scratch off, leaving the dry land to quickly heal underneath.
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We’ve always had flood stories, from Gilagamesh to Turtle Island, from Tumbanoit to Shraddhadeva Manu to ill-fated Doggerland. Waters have moved, we’ve adapted, and while some of these are parables some are thought to be us making sense of weather events we’ve actually seen. Maybe it’s not all that different than a lot of science. We’re still just trying to make sense of things.
I spent the end of 2015 by the river I know best, watching it rise to seven feet above flood stage, listening to the wind howl and spit tornadoes and batter our 103-year-old house while the trees began to bud three months early. For more than a week the storm blew, taking branches and lawn chairs and all loose things with it, leaving a pristinely waterlogged quiet on the last day of the year. It’s subtle to me, in the way things are when you are raised with them, but people here often mark time by the harvest and the hunt, the hail and blizzard and drought. We talk about graduations and illnesses and moving house in terms of the year with the monster tornado, the late thaw, the blistering heat wave, and while it doesn’t seem as epic as an ancient mythology, these are ways we collectively mark our time and experience here all the same. If nothing else, it’s a commonality we remember more than a calendar page.
I’m grateful for the opportunities I’ve had, and I’m also grateful to have come from a place where the human veneer is a bit thinner, the skies a bit bigger, the horizon a bit clearer as we build and hustle and bustle to meet it. I’m grateful for time away from the languages we often think are the only ones, and remember the older ones spelled out in deer tracks and green shoots, in mud and birth and death, a feral grace of economy that only takes what it needs. Here’s to the blank slate of 2016, clean and new and brought in on floodwater and wind.
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There’s abandoned future-fi all over this town and every time I step over another decomposing cyberpunk novel it’s like some spent artifact, a vestigial paper husk melting back into the pavement after seeding the world with things to come.
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There are a million stories here, some told and re-told and some that crossed the ground only once along with the people that carried them. One of my favorites is about Stray Dog Bob, a collie mix who showed up around the time the mines were booming and allegedly bestowed good fortune wherever he happened to turn up. The miners would lay out steaks and stitch tiny elaborate bedrolls nicer than their own in hopes of luring Bob to their camp. There’s a 1906 newspaper article about an elderly woman found wandering delirious in the high desert, near death but in the company of a huge collie who guarded her closely and attacked anyone that tried to come near. A stray dog actually did chase me down the road here, and was called off by a rather feral ten-year-old kid on a dirt bike who explained their dogs don’t like outsiders and then apologetically showed me some sights.
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It’s amazing to me that the deposition of precious metals on the earth’s surface has been a long-running mystery, and that our most accepted theory is that we were peppered with them from space by a series of asteroids. A continent was crossed, towns rose and fell, rails were laid and prostitutes were lavishly decorated by our steadfast obsession with some gleaming sky gravel. It’s said that the total amount of gold mined worldwide would measure 20 meters square, and our entire system of buying and selling things – food, clothing, shelter, more shiny rocks, our limited time on earth – has been consensually based on this one cube the size of a backyard until just before my lifetime.
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“Men come and go, cities rise and fall, whole civilizations appear and disappear-the earth remains, slightly modified. The earth remains, and the heartbreaking beauty where there are no hearts to break…. I sometimes choose to think, no doubt perversely, that man is a dream, thought an illusion, and only rock is real. Rock and sun.”
– Edward Abbey
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“It is often said of deserts that they are where the Prime Mover was practicing before making the rest of the world. Such definitions imply that the desert is where we are closest to the creative spirit of the universe, and it’s not coincidental that several of the world’s great monotheisms were born and raised in the desert… We call the desert a wilderness, the closest synonym in the dictionary for which is “wasteland”, and can’t decide which it is. The Great Basin hosts both, like other deserts a home to the anomalies of the divine. Although the desert is not a blank slate, it’s empty enough in comparison to what we are used to that we’re prone to transform it in our imaginations into a literal void that happily receives our mythic inventions… We want, apparently even need, to see it as that void that helps define us as a people. The more crowded the planet becomes, the more contested the supposed nobility of our history, the more we need the void as a physical purity to reassure us that all is not lost.”
~ William L. Fox | The Void, the Grid, & the Sign: Traversing the Great Basin